Where is the time going?

No seriously, I "heard" somewhere after hurricane Katrina or those Asian tsunamis that the world now spins a bit wonky and the days are actually a hair of a fraction of a fraction SHORTER because of our orbit and all sorts of shit being askew, IDK for certain until I interview some mega geo-scientists but I can say I feel they are. 

I was almost about to say this has been on of the craziest weeks of my life, instead I'll say I hate when I go for these long stints without journaling or unloading my thoughts because it's been 6 damn years since my last damn blog.  I found yet another old diary, this one not locked like Fort Knox as my bubble gum pink one (mentioned in my first blog in 2009) and about 85% unwritten in. 
What it did refresh my memory on was what a boy-crazy lil tweenager I was- holy Jesus. 
I think the way chromosomes work I must have inherited the hyper-sexual gene from my dad (yes, I just threw up in my own mouth a little as I wrote that) but I damn sure don't think it's from my mom! Also, dad is 57 now and has a two year old son, and another mystery baby due any day now.

Yep, it's been six years since I've bothered sharing what's new in my life for later retrospection; Became a flight attendant almost 5 years ago, Alex (Chrissy AND Kuma) passed away in 2016, I met my wife, we got symbolically married on 8.8.18, and on the last day of our wedding week in Cabo, Dad dropped the bomb about his secret life and Mom decided a divorce would probably happen.  Fast forward 7 mos and they were officially divorced and the home that she, dad, Alex and I all built, our very first, was officially sold on September 3, 2019.  Fuck that's so many bummers in one... but that's life right?  

So in addition to all this shit I went ahead and fell in love with one of my best friends, a huge nerd (literally and literally) and I had no idea that we are basically the same person split in two.  We like the same music, we love nerdy things like video games, comic books science fiction... fantasy worlds and getting shit done in the human realm too.  We lost touch for a while but whenever we got together and hung out in the friend zone there was always this innate love and trust, more than anything a comfortability with sharing the things that have or were happening in our lives without hesitation and very little (if any) judgement.  He got married too, he has kids though, not I... But my two lil furry hearts mean the world to me.  

Without getting into the nitty-gritty just yet I will say I just had a funny flashback of that movie 'The Wood" but if I explain why it would give away too much.  I'll just say I'm in this weird place in my mind where for the first time I am torn between being my usual brutally honest self or just leaving some things unsaid... and as I write that I want to just UNLEASH all my thoughts because, why the fuck not?! Life is too short to live with things unsaid right?

I dunno... I need a nap..

xoxo