I kept thinking about this theory today because I do believe in it. When you put your mind to something- it is more 'REAL' and things can become more easily attainable. Well maybe not EASY, but you know what I'm saying.
I've been on my laptop all friggin day googling things like 'college grants for minority women' and 'compare marketing degree programs in Atlanta'... my most recent search was 'where the f*ck can I find some free money so I can go back to school and get my degree because I'm not making the money I deserve to be making all because of that fateful day...' (when I was ripped outta NYC and plopped into Orange CouNty) ::sigh:: (Yeah I didn't really write ALL of that but I'm sure you get the idea- life story to come)
I LOVE GOOGLING but GEEZ it's still so ridiculous the kinds hurdles one must clear in order to find some decent, reliable info on certain subjects- ESP when it involves trying to get anything DONE that may involve the Gov't... or anything so elusive as try to go to college after you've been outta high school for 6... make that almost 8 years and counting. ::whoa::
YEP- Miss BuBBly here is dead set on going BACK to school in order to acquire my Bachelor's in Marketing because it is a wonderful industry that I've grown to love and have done quite well in as an indie-con ("I-Niner" aka indepedant womannn) LOL lemme stop. I certainly have enjoyed the fruits of my labor but since I'm a 'big girl' now I've decided (and always known) that I will earn a lot more once I get that darned degree... so I'm gonna do it :)
Meanwhile I worked my butt off to get my Realtor's license... looks nice on my wall but hasn't earned me too much as of yet, I just accepted a position to represent DreamMaker Kids as their spokesperson and social networking director, but again- just awaiting confirmation on how best to proceed within the organization.
It's a funny thing when you make a decent living and have a lot of flexbility to do things like travel, sleep in late or just take the day (or month) off if you choose. It's wonderful until you need a route canal and realize 'well Damn I don't get health insurance anymore since I don't have that 9-5er anymore' and proceed to come $2k out of pocket for the joy of getting high on helium and drilled in the face for two hours straight. Anywhoo I've been looking into this TONIK Health Insurance program and it seems pretty cool so I'm probably gonna go for it... The website is all colorful and interactive (cuz it's geared towards 19-29 year olds) so *kudos* on that marketing plan right there.
Speaking of Health Ins... Why can't be all be more like the EuroPeeNz? I mean I really DON'T wanan get into a debate about politix but DANG- it just seems like donkey's and elephants have no common sense or they do but all we get to see is childish Bickering and NO REFORM to help the little guy... the guy like my mom and your dad who bust their arses everyday to keep this hamster wheel churning like it is. UGH it's infuriating to see my own fam get laid off and people with gray hair organizing the lingerie section at TJMAXX when they should be at home making quilts for their grandbabies and watching Oprah at 4pm. (With money in da BANK!)
I wish we could 'go back' to 'simpler' times... I've had this discussion with several folks who disagreed with me using the term 'simpler' when I referred to the 40's and 50's decades where it was RisKee for Suzy homemaker to wear a dress that went down to here or came up to there and her idea of a wild night was staying out past sundown and sharing a rootbeer float with Johnny down the block... Nowadays people wear panties and pasties and call it an 'outfit' and a threesome is so 'ten years ago'... nothing CAN shock us anymore can it? All I'm saying is that It'd be nice to experience a lil of those 'innocent' times... To not wake up to the smell of EVERYONE elses dirty laundry. Alas all I can do is try and recreate it in my own lil World here, so come back anytime now ya hear?! lol
I just watched 'But I'm a CHEERLEADER' for the third time and now Pan's Labyrinth is on... Good old HBO, lol- what a combo. (BTW both are very good movies so check em out) I was also writing my "Goal Statement" letter to Walden University- summarizing all the juicy details that have lead me to where I am today, and WHY Walden? Because it's the most affordable and still quality coursework- THAT's why! Funny how although their instructions basically said 'You may write paragraphs beneath each of the 6 headings below but do not use bullets etc...' and I proceed to write what ended up being an essay about my life thus far and why I'm ready to get my degree. I started editing and TRUNCATING the darn thing and decided to finish it tomorrow. All the beef is in there but now I've just gotta cut summa the fat lol.
Idn't it amazing how a STORY can have so much power in it sumtimez? I think it's awesome that I can write something and it can resonate deeply within somebody else, or get onto a reality show or win a scholarship ::fingers crossed::
I was thinking about the times when I performed at Carnegie Hall and how it sucks that back then (and now) they didn't allow photography or video taping- so if it weren't for the playbill with my name in it and Tony Danzas autograph on the cover, noone would ever really know if my story were true... even me, lol (jk) It's so crazy that we dream about reality and often live in our own fantasy worlds... eventually we get old and none of it really matters- I mean it does but what's past is just a memory. Even with a photograph or 'proof' it's just a story that we tell and expect others to understand. (Main reason why I have a goal of performing at Carnegie for a third time and secrety getting some video footage! lol) That also reminds me of one of my favorite scenes from 'A Waking Life' - watch it here! >
When I say 'Love' and you say you understand, how do I KNOW you really understand? While words may be 'inert' when we DO get to feeling like we understand one another I believe there is a spark that occurs, and while that feeling may be transient I do think it's what we live for...
Speaking of the IMPORTANCE of clear communication- I was talking to someone close to me... and they seemed to think that I had no interest in becoming RICH. It kinda cracked me up because I immediately thought 'well EVERYONE wants to be RICH- duh!' but then they said 'Well I guess it depends on your definition of Rich, right?' and it does. I've R-A-R-E-L-Y seen or met a RICH person who didn't become or wasn't a complete douchebag. Biggie was right when he wrote the lyric 'Mo Money= Mo Problems' because in most cases it's accurate- most people get blinded by EGO and GREED and end up squandering their money because they take it for granted. I simply said "I am not motivated by money, because if I had to choose between being HAPPY and 'getting by' VS. busting my ass TO get money- I'd prefer to just be happy, because this second isn't promised to me and neither is the next. And I would really hate to miss out on a precious moment because I was too caught up in chasing paper... but trust me, I am completely aware of the importance of WEALTH BUILDING. Work smart not HARD for sure. & Everything in moderation :)
Well folks I'm noticing my blogs are reverting back into something more like the diary entries I've written in my old pink book- but I'm fine with that :] I'm actually gonna scan some of the entries for ya and laugh my butt off about them and simpy reminisce because it's a cool feeling too lol. I used to write a lot on Myspace.com/onlykola and a few times of Fbook- but for some reason I feel more at home here on BloGGer.
'Til next time... keep keepin' on and don't sweat the small stuff :} It's all in your MIND!
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*RIP* Patrick Swayze, Michael Jackson, Farrah Fawcett, Ed McMahon, The Oxyclean guy and everyone else who won't be with us come 2010... I hope you're all in a better place <3 P.S. Did you know that about a dozen other 'celebrities' passed this year too- like Bea Arthur from the Golden Girls, John Travolta's son Jett, Dom DeLouise, Mollie Sugden, Natasha Richardson, Ricardo Montalban, Vernon Forest, Steve McNair and Ted Kennedy did too??? Dang... that's sad. Cherish the life you Live people- CHERISH it!
Nite nite*
